I've spent the past three weeks crying & laughing. And trying to really evaluate what I want in my life. Here's what I decided:
I want to watch Miles & Bean grow up.
I love Michelle (our Day Home Mom) but I am seething with jealousy when I pick up Miles and he is so happy because he just went tobogganing or to the spray park. I want to take him. Or at least have the option.
I want to be mentally & physically healthy.
And I haven't been. But I will be.
I want to have enough energy to support my husband.
The store has been draining me. And it's taking it's tolls. Brian has goals that he would like to reach. I want him to see those materialize. I want that more than I want to work on my balancing act ;)
I want to have "friendships".
I've realised how important these are to me. And I need time to create & savour them.
I want to take control of my home.
Finish reno's we started 4 years ago. Clean my pantry. Paint my bathroom. And then be around long enough to enjoy the "peace".